Well it truly has been a year since I last posted on here. Apparently the only time I feel inclined to write is on the most special day of the year. The day my sweet honey monkey was born.
My Dearest GB,
Today you are six years old. I just read back thru all my letters to you. And it is so shocking that you are six! I swear I just wrote your first birthday letter! I swear I was just waking up to get you when you cried and figure out how to feed you in the dark. But here we are. You are six and so darn special.
I feel like you and I have truly had a year of bonding and a lot of harmony. You’ve been a bit of a challenge since you arrived in this world, but this last year we really hit our stride. You kicked butt at school, you made friends and connections and you dealt with another large upheaval like a champ. You handled everything that came your way! Way better than I did sometimes and you were a source of comfort and joy to me during this transition. I am so glad I have kept up writing you these letters and you can find your first, second, third , fourth and fifth birthday letters here to read anytime you want my love.
Five was a good year for you. You learned to read, you discovered a love of learning and creative play. You made some real lasting friends and found a great community to support you. We made it thru a rough time last year where I wasn’t sure what to do to help you. I was so scared you’d hate school forever that you’d never want to find those friends and that connection but you proved me wrong like you have anytime I’ve had a doubt. You are so wickedly smart is scares me. You mostly channel that into video games right now but you also blow my mind with your school work. You want a YouTube channel. Badly. We have a deal that when you wow me with an idea for one I’ll allow it. I have a feeling I’ll regret making that the condition sooner rather than later. That’s usually the case with you.
More and more I see the man you will be shine thru. You are loyal and fair, you are not afraid to show your love for people and to tell them often how much they mean to you. Which let me tell you is so amazingly rare. Always tell those who mean the most to you just how much you care for them.
You are dedicated to those things that inspire and interest you. Which is currently legos, books, Fortnite and Minecraft and the hypothetical YouTube channel you think I will give you.
You are so wild and silly. Just so so silly. You make me laugh and always want to include me in your games and make believe. Building forts with you is the best…even if they destroy my entire house. You are so inquisitive about things that blow my mind. You want to know it all and I love that. The other day you wanted to know how water got into our house. ❤️
This year we had your first real loss. We lost our dear sweet Flapjack. And I was shocked just how much it meant to you. I have always known you loved your sweet “jack jack” but I was not prepared to handle your grief with mine. But as usual you were the loving and compassionate kid you always are, you gave me and grandpa all your love.
You continue to be the very best of us. I am astounded you are mine and that I get to know and love you. Thank you for your unconditional love little man, daddy and I are so fortunate that heart loves us so.
Your favorite things are Levi and Casey and hanging with Gordon at the farm. You love riding your bike to the beach and chasing the birds. You think pool time is the best time and you love to have special days out with mama. Your favorite things to do are legos, drawing pictures and watching movies. You still love pizza, chicken fried rice and quesadillas but you’ve added cheese burgers, crunchy beef tacos and pho into your life. You still suck at sleep 😂
I can’t wait to see what six brings your way…you want to learn to play pool, try a sport and have a YouTube channel (not gonna happen 😂) but I admire your persistence on the issue. I hope that even though everything has changed for you recently I am able to build you a new and better home base full of many more special people.
I will always be here for you baby boy. You are the reason I breathe and the reason I smile.
“I love you forever, I’ll like you for always. As long as I’m living my baby you’ll be”
Love you baby